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Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Happy Birthday to Moi

Today is my birthday. I spent it getting my depo shot (a good thing), getting the day off work (no power, so a good and a bad thing), getting my shoulder looked at (painful, but good), and getting my tetanus and flu shots (bad, but for a good cause)

When I came home my children had cleaned the house.. LOVE IT. BLT had made...what else, BLT sandwiches for dinner. Chef made my favorite dark chocolate cup cakes with cream cheese frosting.

BLT also had a picture to show me. It's my gift - which won't arrive for another few days due to bad weather in my area. It's an adorable Pink and White vintage style Schwinn bicycle. He is also going to let me pick out my favorite helmet and a basket for the front of my bike. I'll be able to ride the couple of blocks to the market each day, and all around my sweet little town on sunny days :) BLT said he planned on getting the same bike, but in black and red once it's available this spring. Then we can ride around town together - I think that's sweet.

I admit I was surprised by the gift, it's sweet and wonderful and something I've wanted for several years. However I'll be honest, it wasn't what I thought he was going to give me.

He's made a big deal lately about wanting us to get married. He said I would never guess what he planned on giving me, and he made it a point to bring my daughter to help pick it out.... so I thought there might be something round and gold coming my way.

I know it was ridiculous. I know that he loves me. I know that we've only been together for a little over a year and living together for 6 months. And I know that deep down I'm a little disappointed.

It's silly... I'm in no hurry to get remarried. I'm happy with life as it is. But I also know that I love the idea of "forever" with him... someday. So I'm being an idiot, and I can't let on that I'm disappointed. The birthday gift he picked out is very "me" and I love it.

Thank you to all my face book friends for the birthday wishes. It was very sweet and much appreciated!


  1. What a cute gift and Happy birthday.

  2. First of all, "dark chocolate cup cakes with cream cheese frosting" .... *drool*

    The bike sounds AWESOME! And isn't it a token of "forever" with you that he wants to get a bike of his own and join you?

    There's no need to feel like an "idiot", we all look for a token to show the world that we've been chosen for forever by these men who love us. Be gentle on yourself.

    Happy birthday. :)

  3. I think it is such a sweet gift. Well thought out and as T said a good picture of a future together.

    Love you,

  4. I think a bike is a great gift! Add to that the fact that BLT is willing to get one too and toodle around town with you - such a neat idea.

    The rest will come, be patient and enjoy.

  5. That sounds like a wonderful gift! I just came across your blog from Random Esq's blog. I've read most of it today. You remind me, in a lot of ways, of myself. It is refreshing to know that I'm somewhat normal.

    Enjoy your bike when you get it!

  6. Thank you all for giving me another perspective. That's one of my favorite things about blogging - getting to see events and life experiences from other people's points of view.

    It IS a sign of his devotion and plans for us to be together for a long time. I just needed to see it from his point of view.

    Welcome Marja - thanks for the sweet comment. I'm just happy someone else thinks I'm somewhat normal! LOL!

    Little Ol' Me :)

  7. But lets not stretch the point of view and look at the bike wheels as TWO rings. That's a wee bit much.

  8. I have a question. Why does forever have to equal a ring? BLT loves you and is committed to you, that is obvious. Why not just enjoy it?


    Glad you had such a great birthday! :-)

  9. Sunshine is wise beyond her years! You are SOO right. He loves me, we are committed to each other. We are happy and things are going so well.

    Ring, or no ring I'm happy with the way things are right now. I've never felt so loved - so I'm going to just enjoy it!