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Thursday, March 11, 2010

Two Weeks

My handsome, wonderful BLT will be here in exactly two weeks. This time, 14 days from now we'll be doing very wicked things to each other in my big bed. Oh hallelujah! LOL!

It's not just the sex I miss. I mean, ya, I miss that a LOT. I knew I wasn't "satisfied" in my marriage, but I could never quite put my finger on what was off. It was nice most of the time...but there were never really any "OMG lets do that again" moments. On a few occasions I tried to be honest about what I needed, sexually speaking, and he just wasn't interested in accommodating me I guess. Near the end of our marriage we didn't even share a room, so that aspect of our relationship was dead.

BLT and I had such dynamic chemistry right away. I've never had that before now, where just sitting next to each other in a movie theatre or while watching t.v. makes the hair on the back of my neck stand up, and I get goose bumps. It's like I'm hyper aware of where he is all times. Of his scent, his body heat, the sound of his breathing. The crazy thing is, that it was that way the very first time we spent any time together.

Maybe it's this whole long distance relationship and the long period of time between visits, maybe it's chemistry, maybe it's the fact that we made a point to be totally and 100% honest about what we like / don't like / want from each other. I've never been this honest with anyone, and I feel like I can ask for anything, and he wouldn't judge me, he would simply be honest about his interest or willingness to give me what I want. I have so much trust in him, and I know he feels the same way. This open communication thing we have going on is so very sexy. I love knowing what he wants, what he fantasizes about, what he's afraid of, what he dreams about. And I love being able to tell him all of those things as well. Whatever the reasons are this is for certain the best sex of my life. I feel so sexy when I'm with him. So loved, and cherished, and fulfilled in all the ways I've always wanted to be.

I said it's not just the sex I miss, and I mean it. I can't wait to just hang out with him, to show off my town, to lay in bed and watch a movie. I love to cook for him (and until recently I've hated to cook for anyone!), to take care of him in little ways, and to be taken care of and nurtured in all the ways that he excels at. He makes me feel safe...and still thrillingly excited at the same time. It's a heady combo, and I look forward to fully enjoying every moment of our time together.

Two short weeks...they can't pass soon enough.


  1. *Grin*

    Good chemistry between two people is something that can't be replaced. And once you find it? You will never again settle for the "nice sex" you had with your ex-DH.

    Perhaps this is why I've been single forever. Hmmm ... ;)

  2. I can TOTALLY relate to what you're talking about. CBG and I have that exact same chemistry and ability to talk about sex with one another. We have an openness and a trust there, sexually, that I've never had in any other relationship....and before this, I had no idea how important it really is.

    Good for you! I hope you thoroughly enjoy your time together. Forgive me if I missed it somewhere, but how long will this visit be?

  3. five beatiful days... I can't wait.