It's not for the faint of heart.

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Sunday, March 6, 2011

It came... and went....

Today was the day.  His release from prison.  At this moment he's at his mom's house, all comfy and being coddled like some prodigal son.

And you know what?  I didn't really think about it all day.  I've been working my ass off at a local trade show.  I spent all week last week prepping for it.  I spent all day Friday setting up my booth and attending the trade show banquet.  I spent all day Saturday and Sunday hawking my wares, smiling until my cheeks hurt, and making nice with the show attendees.    Not once during the day did he cross my mind.  No panic attacks.  No hysterics or paranoia.

The next week is going to be VERY busy.  This was, by far, one of our most successful trade shows ever. BLT and I kicked some major butt - today alone we took in over 3K in orders... that's right... THREE THOUSAND dollars baby!  We did at least a thousand the day before as well.  Some of our products sell for only 13 - 15 dollars each - so that's a LOT of product ordered and moved this weekend.  Next weekend will be spent cutting, packing, and shipping those orders. 

The following week I'm off to Disneyland with my four kids for five days of fun in the sun!

I don't have the time to worry about him.  And you know what?  I don't WANT to worry about him.  I know he's out there somewhere.  I know that he may try and come around.  I refuse to change my life.  I refuse to be terrified.  I refuse to let him win by not enjoying my life and my well earned successes.  Screw him. 

Thanks to everyone for your kind words and support.  I thought this was going to be a very anxiety inducing weekend, and it turns out that it wasn't as bad as I anticipated.  Having good friends, and my family around me has made all the difference.  Whewww...   I'm exhausted!  Off to bed, because next week is going to be a killer!


  1. Wohoooo!!!! I'm so glad to hear this. You sounded great on the phone this morning. The best convo we've had about "him" in a long time.

    Love you,


  2. I've been reading for a while but haven't commented yet. I have to confess I've been nervously checking here for the past few days hoping everything had gone well.

    I'm so so pleased that you haven't let his release bother you, so so happy.

    Best of luck to you and your family.


  3. Enjoy your fun time. I will continue to keep you guys in my prayers too! Congrats on the successes and upcoming trip!

  4. It amazes me sometimes the perseverance of parents in the situations they're put in. You'd never read a blog post like this on a man's blog because it just doesn't happen. And yet you have the strength to stand up against 'him' despite what you've clearly gone though.

    I've only been reading for a short time, but I can already get the feel for what it's like in your world. Think it might be time for me to start digging back into past posts. Good luck now with 'him' loose!