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Friday, December 3, 2010

Just not feelin' it...

In the past I've been one to rush towards the holiday season with open arms. I was that annoyingly chipper woman with her tree up and her entire house decorated within a few days of Thanksgiving. I attended every craft bazaar I could find. I baked cookies and sang carols with the best of them.

This year I'm just not feelin' it. I've finished up my holiday shopping, but I just left the gifts in their bags and hid them up in the attic. I just can't get up any ambition. I have no desire to wrap gifts or put up a tree. I'm not in the mood for any of it.

It's not that I'm necessarily depressed, I just don't have any holiday spirit. I feel a little sad, but mostly frustrated. I'm upset with the In-Laws still and all our holiday traditions are in the toilet. Nothing is the same as it used to be... and I'm not sure what to do with ourselves.

Last year it had only been about 12 weeks since the incident happened and Christmas passed in a total blur. I don't even remember Christmas morning. I just got out of bed and tried it make it through the day. This year I'm present and I want to enjoy the holiday, I just need to figure out how to get myself into gear.

I guess the month is young...there's still time for the spirit of the season to inspire me.


  1. This may sound lame or trite, but you need to do something for another family this season. Concentrate on others instead of the season or things and all will come back to you tenfold. I understand not feeling like you can get a hold of the Christmas spirit. Totally been there. Which is why I suggest passing some of it along instead. What you'll find is that some will linger when you do. Sending you some light, mama.

  2. Time for new traditions! Bundle everyone up and go get a tree. Have chef and the girls make gingerbread men.

  3. It's time to make NEW traditions. I've been through a few bah humbug years myself. When things change, it seems especially difficult because Christmas is all about tradition. But this is an opportunity to build new traditions and explore new ideas. Ask the kids if they can think of something new to try this year.


  4. Some years we just don't feel it. But I'm with T - it's about making NEW traditions for yourself and your family. :-)