I know you're sad.
I know you're hurting and you want to try and save your marriage.
I know that you're self esteem has been beaten and battered down so hard that you can't see your own beauty and worth.
I know you want to trust him, even though he has done nothing over the past decade to deserve that trust.
But what I know more than anything else is that you deserve better. I get so pissed off when he hurts you. I get so angry that he makes you feel like you're crazy. I don't believe his stories, I don't believe he treats you the way you deserve to be treated. I don't believe this is healthy for any of you. I worry about your children and the example they see of how people in a relationship treat each other.
I worry that you still sleep with him, knowing he may not be faithful to you. Even if it's just emotional affairs (which I don't believe, it's more than that). He hurts you, and you still give that part of yourself to him. I can't even fathom that this is healthy for you.
I love you.
I support you.
I'm here for you in every way. Be strong. Believe in yourself. Lean on me.